How I Got To Control My Own 'Thoughts'
A Member of NHS Research, UK
Submission: September 19, 2017; Published: September 20, 2017
*Corresponding author: Paul Wilkins, A Member of NHS Research and have had lots of my different types of creative writing published in 'United Press Ltd', 'Xlibris Publishers' and quite regularly, an average 2 poems a month, in 'The Blackpool Gazette' local Newspaper, UK, Email: firstname.lastname@example.org
For years I had had all sorts of psychological/thought problems, but when in hospital suffering some stress via lots of confusion at work, and socially, a coincidental event or so where to take place to help me get better in a different way to Health treatment and medication.
I one day alone in a room had just finished on a sheet of paper writing out a positive affirmation of a sentence, when I was made to without thinking - just automatically - slam my book shut, in a panic, when I was distracted by hearing the room I had been alone in door open - someone coming in.
Just after slamming my book shut, and easing off from being made to jump, I noticed the affirmation of a sentence come automatically back to my mind again - without me needing to look where I'd wrote it again.
Having this taken place, I thought 'Oh it looks like that affirmation is now secure in my mind' 'It might go to my subconscious/back of my mind if I don't for a while look at it wrote in my book, which would bring it to the front of my mind again?'
Later on in the day I noticed my affirmation was still able to be recalled by me quite easily, still stuck on my mind, which I thought was a good sign.
Thinking about how with this affirmation stuck on my mind I would have a thought to ease off with whenever I had too much trouble in other areas on my mind, I twigged the most intelligent fact I'd had for quite a while, which was:-
a. I was not to tell anyone else what my personally made up and secured in my mind positive affirmation was;
b. If I did each time it came to my mind it would be distracted by the thought 'Like I told .....'
c. If you excuse me I'm not going to tell you here and now what my positive affirmation - now positive thought stuck in the back of my mind/subconscious - is either, or each time it comes to my mind in the future it will be distracted by the sentence 'Like I wrote/typed up in my explanation/ publication of discovering it'.
I think every personal thought counts/has a large effect on what I'm like.
(C) Paul Wilkins 05/04/2009